Below is an example of how family affect vegans. I am being hindered severely in being vegan. My fathers sister lives on a farm where they raise cows for slaughtering, albeit treat them better than the norm. My dad works at a med-producing biotech firm; animals used as test subjects even if more humane. I seek fellow spiritual people to work with, however can only find cows mothers milk drinking places except through far travel and on my parents money. I have major issues with finding vegan dentistry and have a hole in my tooth. My fathers sister takes meds en masse. My brother relies on hospital equipment. The heck do I do? I need a dentist, it’s stressing me massively, I hate perfectionism. ^ truth All this is like being emotionally attacked, gotta mourn... I think also being herded, yet for some reason my inner child feels like having lost so much and demands playing instead of working - parents having been workaholic. Probably a product of all the non veganism involved as well as other things. I look so much forward to work. I want to work. Of course around vegans or at health stores, ain’t gonna accept being manipulated into some milk drinking endeavour. I am vegan. This right was taken from me once and it seemingly is happening again. I am like stuck between two poles being perfection and what i need. Middle Path is just better (see the manipulation involved here? Emotional affect. Suppressed emotions through various intake (incl. books) for 10+ years. I just hope Christian confirmation (and indirect affect on sorroundings) is not a major cause of this suppression, is teenage behavior like we see in the West normal? <- scapegoat and attempted usage of Christianity on me and dragging through a little hell.