I decided to try and be a hero this year and get rid of all my addictions. Not only did I go oil-free vegan but I cut out caffeine (I only drank a cup a day). I also stopped marijuana cold-turkey which I did A LOT. And, full disclosure, I also stopped masturbating and watching porn. Anything that gave me an artificial dopamine rush I cut it out. I'm trying to spend less time on the computer as well but I don't think that's a major problem and I never was a big drinker. Physically, a lot of cool things are happening. Better skin, lost weight, the spontaneous ringing in my ears has dramatically reduced. I love the fact that I can wake up in the morning and not feel like I need a cup of coffee to get the juices flowing. It's been 38 days now and physically, I feel great. Mentally, however, it's a different story. I believe that one of the reasons people become depressed from cutting out an addiction is that there issues are still waiting for them at the doorstep like a long lost puppy who never left. I'm sure that the lack of dopamine is also a major player. But I just have no motivation sometimes and I walk around with the biggest resting ***** face you have ever seen. Writing this post is taking major effort. I love the fact that I do feel grounded but I can't deny that there are issues I haven't dealt with. I'm wondering however, that because of the withdraw I'm making my issues worse then what they really are. Who knows. I guess you can say I'm relearning how to just simply be. Does any of this go away eventually? I'm curious to hear your stories of withdraw from your food habits and the depression you may have had to overcome. Ultimately, I'm interested in hearing what it's like somewhere over the rainbow.