I did get on the scale and I was ecstatic...I’m right where I’ve been the last few months and did not gain any more! Sure, I’d like to be a few pounds lighter but the fact that I’ve figured out how to eat and not feel deprived and not gain any more is huge for me. I will eventually try and kick back in to drop a few pounds but I’m not obsessing over it. I’m at a good weight for my age. I don’t like that people aren’t constantly telling me how “thin” I am...I miss that, lol lol lol...but I’m not overweight either. So I can deal.
And I don’t mean to sound like being “thin” is so important but I do have the self esteem issues, being old and wrinkled with bad hair...the weight is really the only thing I can somewhat control. I just feel so much better when the weight is down, physically and mentally. I know I shouldn’t obsess over it and that it’s a “society” thing, but it’s not something that is just going to go away. It’s ingrained in my head lol. I am constantly working on it and the fact that I can be content where I’m at is progress. I need to focus more on the health aspect of it more and not worry so much about “how I look”. I’m getting there.