Oh yeah and day 5 vegen supper was a medium salad (6 cup aprox) with two sweet potatoes sliced and baked with cinnamon and a handful of walnuts on top, I had forgoten how much I loved toasted walnuts. Nothing really groundbreaking tonight because I am running low on fresh produce to work with until I can make a trip into town this weekend, I did not exactly plan ahead for this little adventure it was just kind of a wild idea that stuck.
I just saw your thread. Since you've gone quiet, I'm assuming that you went back to eating animals. I just wanted to direct you to some information you might find useful, in case you want to give veganism another try.
Dr. Neal Barnard, M.D., has an excellent book on treating diabetes through diet, titled "Dr. Neal Barnard's Program for Reversing Diabetes". It talks about research that shows that the real cause of diabetes is fat, not sugar. In other words, sensitivity to sugar is the symptom; the cause is eating too much fat. If you switch to a low-fat plant-based diet, then over time, as the fat in your cells gets used up by your body, your blood sugar will stabilize, and you will be able to eat foods you couldn't tolerate before. In the book, Dr. Barnard gives precise instructions for how to go about switching to a plant-based diet. If you prefer videos to books, you can start with this one:
There is also an excellent YouTube channel called "The Exam Room", where plant-based doctors, including Dr. Barnard, are interviewed regularly. If you attend the live show on YouTube on Wednesdays at noon eastern time, you can even ask your own questions.
When you switch to a new way of eating, it's normal to feel very hungry at first. That is caused by your gut bacteria adjusting to your new diet, and it's temporary. If you are eating enough calories, then, with time, you will no longer feel hungry all the time. In fact, the opposite will happen; you will find that you are satisfied with eating healthy quantities of healthy foods.
From many of the things you've written, I suspect that you were probably not eating enough calories. Many people who try to go vegan make this mistake. Animal products are very high in fat and therefore calories. As a vegan, you have to eat a lot more. Salads and greens are extremely low in calories and will simply not be enough. You really have to load up on healthy starches like potatoes, sweet potatoes, brown rice, whole-wheat bread, and whole-wheat pasta, which are more calorie-dense. Your moments of mental confusion were probably caused by not getting enough calories.
I do hope you will give veganism another try. It is a very peaceful and compassionate way to live, and in turn for your kindness, you get rewarded with excellent health in the long term. I thank my lucky stars that I went vegan when I did. Good luck!